Yesterday in midnight ChingYi ,my best friend
SMS me told me to check my PLKN location either I was placed in group one ,two or three cuz the result was came out in Internet last night.
Actually I was going into sleep during that time ,
felt a little bit headache, tiredness and fatigue.
But when I heard this from Yi, I went up bed immediately after receiving this scaring news…
When I online and checked it ,
I was all the way in nervous with hesitation rolled down my spine and the fear electrified my mind,
Accidentally ,my result came out like this:
Taniah.Anda ditempatkan di kumpulan 2 atau 3.
Penempatan akan dimaklumkan kelak.
……
What the hell ?!
This screen revealed on my vision,
I again and again refreshing this page continuously and retype my IC number to recheck it, unfortunately the same result came out too…
Oh my heart shattered ,broken out and fall down on the floor and became a million pieces.
This is harsh for me to receive the truth and reality …
I …I couldn’t make it real …
Previously I was hoping against hope and also looked to the bright side that if I were chosen by group 1 ,
I would like to be there in the “Inferno” to suffer and practice for 3 months ,
and this won’t affect the period that I ready for my further study ,
But this never ever happened to me.
During this time, I wanted to call to my brothers
Aldest bro in foreign country now ,
second and third bro might be in their dreamsZzz…
Who hell ones that I could possess to have a shoulder to cry on…
undeniably I am in doubt…
Alone in peace night,
Listening to a touchy song ,
“Somewhere over the rainbow”
The lyric exactly sang out my feeling deeply…
“Somewhere over the rainbow , way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that I dare to dream, really do come true.
One day I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me,
where troubles melt like lemon drops.
Away above the chimney tops , that’s where you’ll find me…”
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